Insomnia - my new best friend!

Hello guys!

I stayed up 'til 3a.m the previous night and the day was awesome! Except for the part where i fell asleep during Mathematics. Poor math. My Math teacher's name is Mrs. Chew! Resist. Urge. To. Complete. Name. So... because it was a double period (i think, it felt pretty long), which means it's one hour and 30 minutes, i had a pretty cool dream! Yep, i was able to dream in class. I dreamt that i was on this bus, and we were getting lost. I forgot who i was with, but i have a feeling it's a bunch of YFCs. So we were getting lost, and i told them we should get off at this stop, so i did, but they stayed on the bus. So of course i was freaking out, like, holy crap i just drifted away from my group and i was alone a lost. LOST AND ALONE. Then Melissa woke me up for recess and i immediately got up and my first thoughts were like "WHUT WHUT WHERE AM I OH MELISSA YOU'RE THERE I'M SAFE YEAHHHH". It's a sign!

Today was a pretty happy day for me. Like, i did better than expected for the fitness test, and Art wasn't too bad either. Except for the fact that everyone kept freaking out about my wrists, i think it's pretty okay. Hahah. And also, my phone started working again! WHO WANTS MY NUMBER?! Hahahhaah omg i'm so easy.

Stole this from Melissa's blog because she has awesome editing skillz.

And here is my face! HAH. I found the geeky specs again, but every time i look at it, it doesn't feel like it belongs to me. Anymore, at least. Like, it feels weird when i wear it. NAWWWWWW. And my hair sucks right now. Why. And my eyebags are coming back! Yeahyeahyeahyeah insomnia and depression!

I love hanging out with Melissa because she always makes me feel happy and high. We were talking about when i was going to start wearing make-up, and i think it's pretty soon. Hahah. But you know, i don't want people to think that like, i'm insecure or anything. I honestly like make-up a lot because ART. I mean, have you seen those really cool make-up like purple eyeshadow and stuff?! I think it's cool. Also, i want to dye my hair. But Josh likes virgin hair. Still though, i seriously want to dye like a part of my hair like a crazy colour.

Short post!

This is an overdue photo of Joshua's face. Hahah. I wanted to post it with the post where i said that i cut his hair! So... how's his new hairstyle? I like it. Hahah.

Please tell me that looks like a hand ughhhhhh. I hope Mdm Grace Lee likes that. Seriously. I really hope so.

Also, you can see a glimpse of another piece that i'm doing! Only it's personal. I hope i finish it for real. hahah. I rarely finish anything like that.

I'm not planning to sleep tonight so if anyone wants to keep me company, go ahead!

Am i not pretty enough?

This is like the first video of me singing that i ever uploaded. Ever. It's not even listed in youtube ^^. I'm not even going to share this anywhere else but my blog. 'Cause you know, i can't really sing or play guitar so it's not something like to show off. Plus, in the end i was interrupted by Vince, he was at my door and he was leaving which is why i said "bye"... I was too lazy to take another video. Hahah. So... the reason why i posted this video is to show how much i love this song after watching "The Loved Ones". If you love Psycho Movies, then you'll like this one. Hahah.


Yesterday was the cheerleading competition. Sadly, i didn't have a video of it and the video that my friend has isn't too clear! There were too many people obstructing her field of vision. So... you'll be left with pictures of when we were preparing for it instead!

Yay!

I'm a koala.

Okai.

We won bronze if you're wondering. Apparently it's supposed to be the "biggest cheerleading competition in Singapore" so good job to us?

HI.

Hey guys, what's up?!

Today, i cut Josh's hair again! This time, both sides (: . He's had that one side thing going on for quite awhile now so we decided to change his hairstyle. Also, spin the bottle helped with that decision.

Josh's phone is dying ): . iPhone. The screen like went all black and it won't stop vibrating. I don't know how to fix it, ugh. I searched it on Google and there's no way to fix it. They say that you let it die, then charge it and it should turn on and be fine again, but Josh said it started  again. Sadness ): .

I have no idea what to blog about right now, except, I'm really pissed off with art. I don't know why they're making me do boards and crap and then the final art piece. It's so unnecessary. I'd rather do a few art pieces and paintings instead of drawing the same thing over and over again only in different ways. Seriously. Hate Singapore and their freakin Art education system thing. Ughhhhh.

Wassily Kandinsky

K dudes, just found a painting i have on the wall of my mom's bedroom. I wonder how legit it is.

That's how it looks like right now.

His teeth.

Thought it would make my blog less boring. Hahah.

I'm screwed up.

I think i'm a really horrible person who does horrible things and who thinks really horrible thoughts. I think i'm just purely horrible. Still, i'm horrible, but it doesn't mean that i'm heartless. I do have feelings, and i do actually care about how others feel. I'm not horrible intentionally... i just am. I don't know why i do these things. But i do. And i hate myself for that. I wish i was never born, and i wish i never ever stepped in to some people's lives. I never thought i was a mess-up, i always thought i was right. I had good intentions... i really thought the things i did was for a good cause. I ended messing up anyway. I'm sorry for screwing up. I'm really really sorry. So i guess whatever i feel right now, i shouldn't acknowledge my feelings. I deserve to feel this wayyyyyyy.


Do you ever think about how i feel? I think about how you feel all the time. I want to know a lot of things. I want to know everything. I want to talk to you. No, i need to talk to you, but i can't, because i would ruin your day. I don't want to be selfish anymore, so i won't. For you. So i won't ruin your day. So your day won't be ruined. Because i care about you. And i care about how you feel. So okay.

Tourists.

I look so tall beside her Hahahahah.

Some weird nerd.